i was an ibuprofen addict for a while. i was taking 24 pills a day. 3 or 4 every 4 hours until school was out. then my doctor told me i was on analgesic rebound, which means i built up an immunity of sorts. i could take a maximum dose and it would have had no effect on me. that was good for a while, then my doctor found out. now i am only allowed 3 doses on pain killers per week, and only for the relief of pain, not the prevention of it. all in all, it was an interesting experience. i don't recommend it though.
Why would you two get sent to the office? What did the orchestra do? I have a feeling that I do not know the seriousness of the situation with Kim.... can someone fill me in please? Anyways, I have never had Rum and Coke.... and Eva you better not be going home to get drunk... I will have to not let you out of my sight EVER after we get off the bus!! Ali, why are you cutting yourself? If something is going on that's that serious, maybe your parents should know... at least to the point where they can try and be understanding. As for hiding it, Depending on how high up it is, you can wear braclets... many, many braclets. Then they won't notice. Drugs only temporarily take away the pain. That's the problem with them. When you come down off of it everything seems so much worse than it was before you took anything/got high.In other words, you tend to come down HARD . Hence the term "drug addict".... it's too temporary to only do it once. Adam, that is beautiful.
eva, rum and coke is okay, but not the best. kim, give me back my shoes. angel, we will not get caught. they will not call all the orchestra kids to the office and suspend all of us. i am not a big fan of fries inless they comefrom a fatty, greasy fast-food place. homemade fries really suck. i love cheese pizza, so i think i'll go downstairs and have some.
does anyone have any suggestions on how to hide my wound on my arm from my parents? the last time i did something like this, i told them it was an anxioty rash. if they knew it was a self-inflicted wound, they'd kill me.....slowly and painfully. i am worried b/c i know i'll have to wear a short sleeved shirt to S.O. next week. ibuprofen should take all the pain away(it is very, very, very painful). if not that, i'll track down some perscription narcotics. pain. anguish. we are a troubled bunch.
I am scared of death. I don't think it will be painful or anything, just that I don't know what will happen "on the other side" is what worries me. I am afraid to end up in hell. I fear that, because I have doubted the existence of God, that's where I'll end up. That would not be good at all. Hell scares me a lot (not necessarily death). Also, I think just the concept of eternity scares me. You know? What's it like to understand "forever"? What does that word really mean? "Infinity" is another one. I know the definition and everything but I don't think I really UNDERSTAND it at all. How can something go on forever, without an end? Like, outerspace or something? Is that what heaven is like? Eternal space? I try not to think about it. Thank you for that food for thought Eva.....
Peace, Love and many, many french fries, Amalia :-)
Ewwwwwwwwwwwww don't tell me that you talked to Ms. Wong!!! Anyways..... stop complaining about that Science thing. Think of it this way.... you have a whole seven (at least) more days to pracitce and look forward to it. Plus, would you rather get sick and die this weekend or wait another week and win the competition??? :-)
i was sooo mad about the meningitis thing that i took a pumice stone and took off 7 layers of skin on my arm. it only hurts temporarily. surprisingly, it wasn't that bloody. i hope i'll have scabs to pick at. i have many scars on my arm from when i scratched off layers of skin and picked at the scabs for months on end.
That's it!!!! I am going to purchase a few cruise missiles from Boeing and use them to wipe out the meningitis bacteria. If I can't do that, well... I'm off to play some more Quake 3 to blow off steam. RRRRRRRR..... Sorry if my anger is getting anyone down, I don't mean it. I am just REALLY mad, and I can't do anything about it. I hate not having control over a situation. RRRRRRR.... I really need to play Quake......
You people need to stop with the whole sugar thing. It doesn't solve problems you know. Anyway, that science thing does suck but look at it this way: would you rather have a bacterial infection and die of it or wait a week for your tournament... plus, you get extra time to practice. DUH! YOU HAVE TO WIN!! You all know you are going to want to go Colorado! well, congratulations KIM!!! Hope it stays that way......
i am soooooo mad about that that damn meningitis outbreak too!!!! it messed up my entire sugar-filled, wonderful day! i hate illnesses. especially when they interrupt science olympiad.
really?!?!? i am surprised. let's try and keep him that way. i don't see how he could have gone without alcohol for three whole days. do whatever you damn well please.
who in the name of god's green earth is Emily? the emily who used to go to morse and was in forensics? the one who's last name begins with S(i have failed to remember the entire thing)? i apologize for any spelling or grammatical errors made in the last post.
my dad just called me lazy, fat, and stupid. people look at my problems as if they are so miniscule compaired to others, and that they don't matter. my dad told me i have to keep irish dancing even though i hate just because i don't get much excercise. i don't do a lot of activities because fear controls my life. my father doesn't allow me to have fears so he thinks i don't do things because i am stupid, fat, and lazy. my mother is one of my many problems, but my dad thinks i am just making excuses. he doesn't care about the well being of his daughter. when i finally find an activity that i like, my parents disagree with it. they don't allow me to do anything on my own. people never listen to what i have to say. they just hear what i tell them. my problems can't be overlooked. i am dying here and people are failing to notice. my sanity disappeared a long time ago and my world has been crumbling ever since it was created. i want people to listen, to hear, to see. they won't know how to help because they don't understand what is wrong. i am destroying myself piece by piece and people have yet to even notice my problems. i want to be helped. i want to go back to having a normal life. i can't even remember my life before They interfiered. i can't remember the last time i had fun, or participated in normal activities without having fear control what i do, or the last time i felt free. the life that people see is very different from the one i am living, or not living. i haven't ever "lived" as some would say. just listen to what i say, not what i tell you. pay no attention to the me you look at. pay attention to the one you see.
Eva, Eva, Eva.... what are we going to do with you? I stopped reading your theories. I CAN'T BLINK THAT FAST!!! hee hee.... Anyways, hi Emily. And, Kim, you can talk to me too, if you need to. That's a rough situation for anyone. Adam, as much research as you do, I don't think that you'll ever be able to change the "bad-parent" syndrom. Forgive my bad outlook, but I think, even if you do find some way to change things a little bit for Kim, there will still be thousands of kids in the same situation that suffer worse fates each day. I'm sorry. I'm usually not this down on the world you see, I've just come home from a funeral and.... oh well, that's a story for another time..... well, adios peoples! And, Eva, you'll have to explain what all those words I was attempting to read are about later... once my eyelids have recouperated.
*yaawwwnnn* So this is it, the last day of spring break. *ominous silence* I dont want to go back! Someone save me from the ravages of highschool! *gets sucked into a big swirling void of homework*
Everyone, I have a very serious request. You are all aware of Kim's life at home. We're going to help. I need everyone to research Wisconsin Social Services, Child Welfare, Psychology, anything that will help Kim. I've already started research into Social Services. This will continue no longer. Email me here.
indeed. why won't anyone ramble? i have nothing to respond to. PLEEZ!!!! i beg of you. someone ramble soon, or i shall not know what to do with myself.
thou art fools. rambling fools. i can't believe how fast this week has gone by. .....O....M....G!!! i know someone who would kill me for what i just did.....i am so sorry.
I think we should yell at Tony for that one. That was kinda bogus!!! Dude, no he did not! Anyway, that's all for now and I agree with Allie about posting all in one thing.... well, peace folkz!
Dude, Kim, that was a lot of posts. Anyway, there's really nothing much to say here... I mean, life is pretty o.k. for me right now. Other people it's not going to well for. Today was tragic. I'll tell you all sometime later. Peace, Amalia :-I
Neurological:Epileptiform seizures, coma, dizziness, tremors, numbness, tingling, paresthesias of the extremities, peripheral neuropathy, headache, ataxia, alteration in EEG patterns, extrapyramidal symptoms including abnormal involuntary movements and tardive dyskinesia, dysarthria, tinnitus, incoordination, and slurred speech.
Anticholinergic:Urinary retention, dilatation of the urinary tract, constipation, paralytic ileus, especially in the elderly, hyperpyrexia, dry mouth, blurred vision, disturbance of accommodation, increased intraocular pressure, precipitation of latent glaucoma, aggravation of existing glaucoma, and mydriasis.
Cardiovascular:Quinidine-like effect and other non-specific ECG changes and changes in AV conduction, prolonged conduction time, asystole, hypotension, syncope, hypertension, palpitation, arrhythmias, heart block, ventricular tachycardia, fibrillation, myocardial infarction, stroke, unexpected death in patients with cardiovascular disorders.
Hematologic:Bone marrow depression, including agranulocytosis, leukopenia, eosinophilia, purpura, thrombocytopenia. Allergic: Skin rash, urticaria, photosensitization, edema of the face and tongue, itching.
Gastrointestinal:Nausea, epigastric distress, heartburn, vomiting, hepatitis (including altered liver function and jaundice), anorexia, stomatitis, peculiar taste, diarrhea, parotid swelling, black tongue may occur.
Withdrawal Symptoms:Abrupt cessation of treatment after prolonged administration may produce nausea, headache, and malaise. Gradual dosage reduction has been reported to produce, within 2 weeks, transient symptoms including irritability, restlessness, and dream and sleep disturbance. These symptoms are not indicative of addiction. Rare instances have been reported of mania or hypomania occurring within 2 to 7 days following cessation of chronic therapy with tricyclic antidepressants.
kim, whatever you do, don't try to fight what your dad says. he will always win. believe me, i have battled my fair share of parents(even though you have a much tougher situation) and i have always lost. You will too for parents control everything. Until you turn 18, your life is in their hands.
everyone is online when i'm not!!!! what rotten luck i have. i have nothin to do during the day. i'll spend hours doing nothing!!!! soaps are good as is jeopardy but those are on for only a little while. i am bored out of my mind!!!!!!
Hi everybody! Thank you (Adam) for being there to talk to.... I don't have many people like that... usually I am the one that is there to listen and never to be heard. k... that's about it!
WHY ISN'T ANYONE ONLINE!?!?!?!?!?!? tis spring break! kids are supposed to be online or on the telephone! what is up with all you people who have found practical ways to waste time? i have to go watch jeopardy.
If you have an It, you know it. you cannot be told...you just know. I have friends that have had to choose between me and another person and i have never gotten picked, so don't feel bad. I get used to that. that is why i have trouble making friends. a choice will be made and i will move on. as horrible as that may sound, it isn't that bad. i am very used to it by now and i find it to be quite helpful. I think of it as preparing me for the working world. look at every disappointment as a lesson(don't i sound like a teacher, parent, or a paycologist?). things like that can be a positive experience. Disregard anything i have just said because it is total bull shit. anything in this post is subject to change.
Um, I guess I just wanted everyone to know (Eva, Angel, and Allie already know), if you need someone to talk to (this is mainly directed at Amalia for the moment), send me an email. I will always take time to talk to my friends and blog-people. To sum it up: if you need to talk to someone about anything at all, send me an email, I will listen. Mmm-kay? Enjoy your now, my peeps.
Thank you and thank you again. I don't know, I guess I'll be o.k. I suppose that everyone does go through this at some point or another but, thanks for being there anyway... and for understanding. I will live through this and get over it eventually. I have to. Eva, what is an It? How can I tell you if I have one or not if I don't know what "It" is? Well, that's about it for now! Peace out folkz! -Amalia :-)
Well, now I guess that I have two things to post about (and my glasses are now on, so I can now see the keyboard). First thing: Amalia, I feel your pain. I know what you are going through. Hang in there. Have I ever told you about Amy? I will someday... sigh. Second: Eva, an afternoon is both an eternity and a non-instant in time. It depends on your perception. How long do you perceive an afternoon to be? Also, have I offended you? Enjoy your thoughts, my peeps.
Ugh! I don't feel really good about myself right now. Not that you all care..... but I just got "chosen over". I'm crushed. No names cause you all don't need to be that in-depth with my little, everyday problems but this guy I liked was choosing (in a sense) between me and this other girl.... guess who he didn't pick? waAAA! I told him that I was o.k. with whatever he wanted and that I would always be his friend and there for him etc. etc. etc. etc... but, even though that is what I feel deep down, it's hard to feel it when there is so much rejection in my face! *this is me crying and not being o.k. with this whole situation* but, I think it will be o.k. eventually... although it is going to be even tougher watching him and this other girl in school for six weeks ...... if they last that long because I did have a chance!!!!!!!!!!! *tears*
Howdy! I actually have something deep to say in this post, so give me some respect (Allie...) (Oh, and for maximum immersion in the mood, put on Led Zeppelin's song "Ramble On") For tonight I have a transcript of my response to the G-man (Mr. Graf, for those who are uninformed) about insignificance in the Universe. It gets into probabilty, so if that makes you queasy... well, tough luck.
Insignificant: yes. I do not mean to argue like this, but I must point out the odds (and I like giving you something to think about). Take the odds that anything in the Universe could happen. When you truly stop to think about it, everything is extremely improbable. What are the odds that I will wave at the man across the street? What are the odds that I will say the word "Improbable" in a discussion about insignificance? What are the odds we will even talk about insignificance? This is what I base my observation of insignificance on. Probability. Probability is one of the foundations of the Universe. Without it, everything and nothing is possible. Can you dig it?
-Adam
Think about this for a while, peeps, but don't let it depress you.
robyn is at school on tuesday mornings and thursday afternoons. i really think that we schould talk about our issues with someone who can help us, friends can only help to an extent. Mr.K is not the kind of person who'll listen that well. she is a great listener. i met her once and then went back and out poured my huge secret. i really think we could benefit from some "group therapy". it was a fantastic experience to talk to you guys, even though i didn't do much talking. i have never heard you guys open up like that. it was a wonderful experience. Miller park is kewl. the roof opened up while playing 2001:a space oddessy. it was really kewl. i thought it was totally bull shit when i found out they don't serve popcorn on the club level, which was where our seats were. happy easter!!! life's a bitch, and then you die, so fuck the world and let's get high! tootles
Hi everyone! I haven't been here in a long time. Last time I tried it wouldn't let me post anything on here! That kinda sucked. Anyway.... I really don't have much to say..... At least the stuff on here is way less depressing than the last time I saw it and there was only one mention of drugs. Drugs are a no no. So is getting high. Fuck with that shit and you can really screw up your life bad. I've seen it happen to too many people already. Really, I have. You start with Pot, marajuana then the next thing you know you're doing LSD and skittles. I hope none of you guys are really on drugs. If you are you need to stop before it gets out of hand... and that can happen very quickly.... Well, TTYL peeps. Happy Easter!
i know i get it from dilbert, i knew you were going to catvh it, and i thought other people might get a kick out of it. but eva ruined it. honestly. you have way too much time on your hands. i strongly urge you to get a life. kim probably won't be coming tonight to jenny's shindig. she has had another fight with her beloved father. this time regarding why her brother gets pampered and gets off the hook for everything he does and she gets blamed for everything. my my my. what a demented world we live in. life's a bitch, and then you die, so fuck the world and let's get high! tootles
*Warning! Long, rambling, inane, pointless, and REALLY stupid post ahead. You have been warned* Allie, i think that you read to much dilbert, honestly! You think that no one will catch your tip-of-the-hat to a classic Dilbert comic? Well, I caught you. Good work. Um, As for Em, It matters to me not. Jejejejejeje. I think you people are all insane. Now please sit back and read this post in FIVE LANGUAGES!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!! French: Allie, je pense que vous lisez à beaucoup de dilbert, honnêtement! Vous pensez que personne n'attraperont votre incliner-de--chapeau à un Dilbert classique comique? Bien, je vous ai attrapé. Bon travail. UM, quant à la fin de support, il importe à moi pas. Jejejejejeje. Je pense que vous les gens êtes tous aliéné. Veuillez maintenant se reposent en arrière et lisent ce poteau dans CINQ LANGAGES!!!!!! Spanish: Allie, pienso que usted lee a mucho dilbert, honesto! Usted piensa que nadie cogerá su inclinar-de--sombrero a un Dilbert clásico cómico? Bien, le cogí. Buen trabajo. Um, en cuanto a Em, importa a mí no. Jejejejejeje. Pienso que usted gente es toda insano. Ahora satisfaga se sientan detrás y leen este poste en CINCO LENGUAJES!!!!!! Italian: Allie, penso che leggiate a molto dilbert, onestamente! Pensate che nessuno interferiscano il vostro capovolg-de--cappello ad un Dilbert classico comic? Bene, li ho interferiti. Buono lavoro. Um, per quanto riguarda il Em, importa a me non. Jejejejejeje. Penso che la gente siate tutta insani. Ora vogliate si siedono indietro e leggono questo alberino in CINQUE LINGUAGGI!!!!!! German: Allie, denke ich, daß Sie zu vielem dilbert lesen, ehrlich! Sie denken, daß niemand Ihren Spitzen-von-dhut zu einem klassischen komischen Dilbert abfangen? Gut fing ich Sie ab. Gute Arbeit. Um, was EM anbetrifft, sie ausmacht zu mir nicht. Jejejejejeje. Ich denke, daß Sie Leute alle geisteskrank sind. Bitte jetzt sitzen zurück und lesen diesen Pfosten in FÜNF SPRACHEN!!!!!! Portuguese: Allie, eu penso de que você lê a muito dilbert, honesta! Você pensa de que ninguém travarão seu derrub-chapéu a um Dilbert clássico comic? Bem, eu travei-o. Trabalho bom. Um, quanto para a Em, importa-me não. Jejejejejeje. Eu penso que você povos é tudo insano. Satisfaça agora sentam-se para trás e lêem-se este borne em CINCO LÍNGUAS!!!!!!
I hope you all enjoyed that. How's that for a rambling post, Allie?
you look funny all purple! must... stay... awake.... must.... make..... important... decisions. must replace optical switches with...dancing lemurs. AHHHHH!!!! French people are poking me with cigarettes!!! ahhhhhh!!!!! who the hell is emily S.? life's a bitch and then you die, so fuck the world and let's get high! ahhhh! the people in white are coming for me!!!! No! not a straight jacket!!!! tootles
i recommend a cat, as long as you're not too attached. i am one of two white kids on my bus so i get left alone most of the time. i never wanted to jump off a building, just a bridge. dishwalla does a song called teh bridge song. i want some drugs and chocolate. chocolate is what makes everything all better. life's a bitch, and then you die, so fuck the world and let's get high! tootles
i have proplems with my version of It. instead It is a Them. they won't leave me alone. Normal people don't understand the severity of my condition. i know you won't understand. you might try, but you won't have any sucess. people claim they understand but i can see it in their eyes that they don't. i also hate it when people say "he/she is crazy". they don't even understand what crazy is. i could be honest-to-goodness crazy. nobody will understand. i made a big decision yesterday. i decided to tell kim about them. i didn't tell her, per say. the words refuse to come out of my mouth. i can write it, and the words will come flowing out of my fingers, but when i am asked to tell....i am rendered speechless. tootles take your prozac. and eva, illegal narcotics aren't always the solution. mass quantities of over-the-counter narcotics will do just fine. believe me.
winkelmann, why do you claim to ramble when your posts are bareley a paragraph? eva, tu es tres stupiude. je n'aime pas Mme Washbush, mais Mlle Langenhahn...elle est un peu interessante. whatever. J'ai fini.
hi amalia. heeheehee. aren't we depressing? we are all fools. in the wise words of Berthe Erica Crow in the Westing game "we are all sinners, all". don't ask me why i remember that specific line but i have yet to remember my best friends telephone number. blah blah. kill elmo! have you had your prozac today? i know i have! tootles
Hi everyone. I finally joined. You all scare me, but I want everyone on here to know that I am ALWAYS ALWAYS here to listen. I know that whatever all this stuff is that's goin on with you peeps is serious and you're probably not ready to tell anyone but I want all of you to know for sure that as soon as you are... I am HERE 4 you! That's it for me now! :-)
bravo eva! i don't think anyone could handle what i need to tell. even the psycologist had to refer me to a specialist. she had no clue what was going on with me. i hate almost everything. my back is in extreme pain too. i need to take some drugs. drugs are good. the psycologist today in group told us that is was our choice to do drugs or to not do drugs. she wasn't going to tell us not to. she thought is was in "our best intrests" not to though. my parents say that to me all the time and they are full of bull shit. they also control the car keys, unfortunately. for future reference, caffine pills taste nasty. kill big bird! fuck the world! to hell with life! FIN
what is It? i have a notebook in my room that says some pretty weird things in it. my parents better keep their eyes away. i haven't told anyone but the felame school psycologist about its contents. i hope to keep it that way. if i told anyone about its contents something realy horrible would happen because of what is in the notebook. what i am refering to is not an It it's a Them. They will do something to me if i tell.
my parents are devils. my mother and father talk about me from their room, rather noisely i may add. they never ask about my social life. although my father has tried to talk to kim when i was running to the phone when he answers it first. that is his pathetic attempt to make her stop calling. he has scared her quite a bit. at least he isn't sharing embarassing stories of my childhood, yet. it is now a rhombus. they are kewl. i gave up soda for lent(my this dr.pepper tastes lovely) and candy(who can live without M&Ms?not me, that's for certain). winkelmann, you better start yappin' about the thingy about amy. i really would like to know. despite the fct that i will make fun of you when and if you tell. that goes for eva and angel too.i do believe eva knows that *giggle, giggle* seeing as how *snicker, snicker* she had to dress *gufaw, gufaw* up for that *chuckle, chuckle* business thing. that was a hoot. i actually had some beef when i was in paris so i may have mad cow. mwahahahaha!!!!! don't worry, i'll give it to everyone I know. yay. then we'll all die! heaven, satan, and purgatory watch out! eva, ramble no more. angel, um...your hair is kewl(POWER TO THE REDHEADS!). winkelmann, better get chattin'. die teletubbies! die! tootles happy pill sensae i also found out that my medicine makes me really, really drowsy. it also makes my ears ring. amitriptyline is not a happy pill. albuterol on the other hand is a miracle medicine. so is caffine. unfortunately i have been resticted to 3 doses of narcotics a week. damn analgesic rebound! contrary to popular belief, naproxen taken in high doses will not kill you.
Honestly, Eva! Sometimes you scare me! Ladies and um, ladies... (well, now I can't quote Brian, darn) I've got a problem now. My parents, in their all-knowing wisdom, have taken it upon themselves to be informed of my social life. Angel and Eva know of Amy. Allie, you don't. I might tell you the tale later. Anyway, they asked me "What about Amy?" and now they won't take "I don't want to talk about it." for an answer. After I left, they talked about me behind my back for like 5 minutes. They think I can't control my own life. Grrrrrrrrr, I hate nosiness with a Holy Passion (or maybe an Un-Holy Passion). IT MAKES ME FURIOUS!!!!!! Uh, whatever. Just hope they forget about this, please.
angel, why is your hair red again? did u dye it? kewl if you did. it would be kinda creepy if it was red and u didn't dye it. how come not many people are part of this blog? can i invite more people to be in the blog as long as you other peoples know them? it would make things a lot more interesting. how come winky hasn't written much? angel and eva, why do you two always write short messages? whatever. tootles. allie
run from the deadly cars! they could jump on you when you cross the street! don't forget the bugs. they could come into your house and poison you. i have nail polish on that changes purple in the sunlight. yay. tootles allie i have short hair!!!! ahhhhh!!! the shorter my hair is, the less likely that the bugs could attach on to it. when i want to post something, do i push "post" or "post&publish"?
you peoples are way beyond psycho. my neighbor was telling me about a guy that was schizophrenic. he was afraid that bugs were going to kill his children so he pur screens all over his house. he then thought that the bugs could still get in so he put up more screens. then he thought that the ct could bring in bugs so he went outside and killed it and burned it. he also thought that cars were going to jump up and kill his kids so he started to build a huge fence around his house to keep the cars out and that is when he was dragged off to the looney bin, psycho ward, insane asylum, nut house, etc or whatever you want to call it. well...that is my interesting story of the day. i hope you all can still sleep at night knowing that at any minute, a car could jump out of the street and kill you or a bug could harm you at any second. tootles.
you peoples are all fools. did winky join the blog? i hope so because it was getting boring with just us three. i have short hair now!!!!! i also have to go to dinner at Henry's bar and grille. tootles.
Howdy, y'all. As Eva said, I am Adam W aka CommanderBurrito. This is my first post (duh), so um... yeah. If I get too annoying for you with my crackpot (or godlike) theories, just hit me or something. See y'all round.
sorry i haven't posted for a while. i was ban from the computer. i prefer not to use the term grounded, but i think it applies. guess what?(your response: what?)I have OCD! i also have a generalizd anxioty disorder. bummer for me. i also have some mysterious disorder but i don't know what it is yet b/c todd and robyn haven't given me the number of a psycologist or a specilaist. they said it was not their specility to diagnose serious stuff like that. bummer for me yet again. gotta finish my essay and go to bed. tootles